In any moment you can look from your own self-knowledge or you can know through the immediacy of Being knowingly aware that you are aware, which is a stateless state of Truth. This is Being true to Knowing, which has nothing to do with how the small self operates or functions, has nothing to do with experiencing thoughts or feelings, whether they be in the deep past or yesterday.

Although the registration of these phenomena (thoughts and feelings) is constant. It is phenomenal experience in the body-mind, which is made up of the past since time apparently began. In the linear perspective it ‘began’, but in this moment of verticality, it begins and ends Now.

 A Truth vibration streams the body-mind Now. It is a living field in the making of ‘Now’.

 It can be terribly difficult to stay with this and it may bring many circumstances into one’s life, where the smallest undoing of a level within becomes a big movement outside.  You do know in a very simple way that being on the path of 'Truth direct' is an immediate alignment. Not being on that path direct is ‘a maze’ of experiences, not ‘amazing’ experiences but a maze.

It is imperative that we discover and discern the experience of having a small self, formed and the experience of ‘Experiencing Awareness being aware’.

 Direct knowledge is 'What I Am.' It is not a doing of something to a sense of self. It is 'What I Am'. It doesn't create any impressions, it cannot be impressed. Anybody looking at someone in the moment of Truth-realisation would think they are looking at a blank wall. But what they are looking at is a profound placeless place, that is already swallowing up the entire cosmos and transforming it.

 In our self we relate to experiencing something as a self. In awakening this is either a struggle, or you are awakening to Knowledge. One of the things we definitely learn in the return to be true direct, is that there is no integration without feeling it all deeply, without identifying with what is felt. 

 It is this, that actually grows a greater human being; I-Awareness am no longer pushing away the experience of having a self, a form, because I have polarised the experience of myself and my forms of experience into likes and dislikes and I am not getting what I want at the moment, so life is absolutely terrible and ‘I can't handle this.’  A true awakener is not handling anything. Nothing is being handled. 

There is the forming of a new reality and there is no one behind it doing it. It is Awareness being true to Being-Aware.  Here pure function moves and reforms the functionality of all forms from another place. One will have a sense of self and person and still experience the experiencing phenomena of self in any way it appears. There may be pain or anxiety or depression but now one is realising what is truly going on. It is a phenomenal experience of having form that is being returned to the hand of the Almighty.

It is not that I'm not being responsible for it anymore, I am totally in response, totally in response for it all, and there is not one little tiny level that I am not available to feel, to open to, but I am wise enough not to function around ‘what I feel’, ‘how I feel’ and what that does on a phenomenal level.

 Within all this, depth of Awareness is now turning all the forms into a functional phenomenal movement of Presence forming this moment and there is a greater creative ability that expresses the Beyond; not the past, not a future according to a past.

It is not a function of a ‘someone’ but a  pure function of the Beyond forming this moment.

From Love’s Reach NOV 19 NZ Session with Community / Online